orz

"It is a Japanese based emoticon of a man pounding his head on the floor.
The o is the head.
The r is the arms.
The z is the legs.
Used to symbolize the emotion of frustration."

or

"orz is used in Japan's net-slang terms. "orz" is used to show when you are in a quick depression and sad or have given up on something."


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...That's pretty much how I felt like at times the whole time I was gone. Not all the time, though. Just sometimes. ._.

For those of you that noticed and were wondering where I went; no need to worry. I'm perfectly fine. And if you're wondering why it took me so long to come back was because... I was busy with things while I was gone, namely school, which is why I didn't say anything about my leave. I spent much of my free time drawing and writing stuff as well. And now that summer's here, I spent much of my days doing that too. However... Why I decided to come back now instead of earlier was because of... Well...

Okay, so I got the guts to log back on one day. Checking my messages, I didn't seem to have missed much of anything... Except with one thing. Someone on here posted about losing a loved one. Oh god, I was already kind of guilty not warning you people about my extended, sudden leave, but that one post was what drove that knife in a bit deeper. I felt so, so upset and sorry about not being able to give my condolences earlier... D'x After reading that, I continued to check my messages once more and came across another post. This one is what put in that last nail in me and made me decide to come back to write this.

Apparently, somebody noticed that I've vanished. I kept thinking nobody noticed I left, but I honestly never expected somebody to take it... quite seriously. Again, that one journal post touched me enough that I decided to come back. ;-;

Anyways... Here's why I've decided to write this post.

I'm going to be leaving. Not permanently, mind you. I'm just going to take another break and I'll be sure to come back again.

While I'm gone again, I'm going to think some things through and get my other things together. I've got my vacation coming up soon (it's to Toronto and my family is driving through the States to get there). Once I come back to dA, I'll reveal my new username. So, I guess that'll be it. I'm very sorry if I made any of you upset or angry while I was gone... I fully understand. ;; As a way for compensating, once I come back, I'mma try to put together a sketchdump of all the things I've been drawing. Also, I have a picture that I'm currently working on, those pics in said sketchdump that I'll do afterwards, my three stories making good progress, and a secret project that I'll attempt to do... Whew.

I'll be going now. I may or may not be able reply to any messages, sorry... But thank you for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it. See ya~